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01:41 pm: Ok well I haven't written since i was away at girls statebut my Friday night was random and exciting. I went to nicki's house because she wants to hook me up this summer...oh yeah my goal this summer is to find a boy...so back to my night I was there with Kelly, Nicki, Matt, Tyler, this kid Dave (Kelly's bf) and his friend, Jeremy. SO randomly I ended up going out to dinner with Dave and Jeremy. It was really random and interesting bc they re hicks too and they re from the back woods of Clinton and East Haddam. It was random but we had a lot in common. Dave also had a really nice truck which he bought himself and I was so close to driving it. So now Im anxious to hang out again. It was a lot of fun and Im now ready for a wild, rando, summer.

06:52 am: Yes thats right only one more day here. I come home tomorrow at like 6 so I'm going to show up at graduation so I can see all y'all that I miss. I'm definately having a better time now and will be a little sad to leave all these new people i have met but i got a bunch of aims and some cell #s. Don't have much to say except that I'm glad I came but I'm ready to come home

01:08 pm: 1 More thing I wanted to add that I got a kick out of. Last night at about 11:15. my roommate was getting out of the shower and open the door to the shower room all the way, and the fire alarm started to go off. She was still in a towel so we told her to change fast and we started to head out into the hall and other girls were like whats that and we were like fire drill and then they were all like well its only coming from your room. so we woke up this lady on our floor and told her and all the ladies running the program came into our room and even a cop. And guess what it was (no not all the smoking we were doing) but the steam from the shower set off the smoke alarm. Which makes NO SENCE!!!!! oh well it was pretty funny. So if u are interested in Eastern I am warning u that do not open the shower door wide open or else u might be like my roommate Julia, panicking bc she might have to go outside in a towel. Well that was my interesting night last night. Pretty funny huh?

08:08 am: Just have to say that I am the only one from Ptown sticking it out. Amy just informed me that she's leaving and doesn't want to stay. I feel bad and u could kinda tell she was having trouble adjusting but i thought she would get over it. Oh well. At least I kinda made some friends. This one girl Val and i have a lot in common espeacially the fact that we both love to come to the library to do email. Another girl Becky is really nice and woah guess what shes from east hampton. i was a hypocryte. she is really nice and we came to the conclusion that we both know eachother indirectly. small world. so i was wrong eh people are not that bad its just a fun rivalry hehehe. So i'll update later bc zi know u all want to stay posted!!!!

4 more days til I come home (including today)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

12:47 pm: girls state
hey everyone i'm at girls state right now just wanted to say hi!!! i miss u all and im having a decent time. its kind of weird but its alright. i made some new friends and i have decent roommates. basically we have had a lot of speakers and have spent a lot of time in our town meetings. My town is Grasso City. we have 38 girls. they re all pretty nice and all seem to have good ideas. not much else to say. don't have too much fun without me

love yall
Jess aka Jizzer

02:55 pm: ok last night was the best. i went to cumby's with nicki and erika so they could get ice cream and nicki bought me a GIT R DONE bracelet!!!!!
its the best thing ever, and i never noticed how much larry the cable guy stuff cumby's carries. it is now my favorite place.
then we headed to the state forest where by the enterance a dog chased my car and erika and nicki both screamed. it was funny but scared me. we wanted to go into east hampton but i was too scared to go that way so instead we weent to the mansions. i had a lot of fun now all we need is for jackie to come and we need to go inot East hampton...there is always next weekend!!!

06:58 pm: ok so i didn't get a chance to finish bc of the stupid bell so back to prom
I had a great time and it was a lot of fun and i miss it now thats its over. oh the after party wasn't a lot of fun bc everyone was exhausted and i felt bad bc everyone wanted something more exciting but we couldn't leave. thats alright as long as next year is wild and out of control it will be cool.

friday...exhausted need i say more...well erika and i went to a baseball game and then to the last out of a softball game. then we went to geoff's and i had a blast. we joked and watched the guys act like idiots and it was a lot of fun. i love them. i even have a video on my phone of them chasing eachother around and james is yelling get the girl in the dress its great.

saturday... nothing really exciting happened saturday during the day. toured uhart and i don't like the dorms their gross. hopefully ill get in somewhere better.
Saturday night...friendlies with jackie and nicki and then we picked up erika and john stroud and went to see the mansons and then got lost in the forest bc of me. now im so excited bc Sunday night wee are doing it all over again and this time we are going to see us where the lost path leads and I'M DRIVING!!!

Sunday... not exciting at all except for seeing STAR WARS which was awesome and i want to go again.

Monday...was horrible i was so in slomo all day. at my acapella audition i realized that i can't sight read. i can only sight read rhythms and not pitches so i was lucky i got into round 2.
oh yea another bummer my sat scores. if someone else brings them up tomorrow again i swear i will cry they are horrible and i thought they were easy. guess i was wrong. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH there goes my future. MXCC here I come

05:08 am: so much to say
the bell is going to ring soon and i have a lot to talk about

first i had a lot of fun at prom. it was a good time.
+had fun with my friends
+dancing
+the food
-people in court
-the music was inconsistent and at times hard to dance to

06:51 pm: basically friday night i had this whole journal entry i wanted to write and all it was gonna say was
hypocrites

but then things kinda changed i guess so ill just leave it as whatever

im over it

06:25 pm: thursday nite was awesome, I went to see BRAD PAISLEY in concert. we had great seats and it was a really good show.

friday i woke up tired and not feeling that great. it was pretty nice in school bc the seniors were gone. the halls were way less crowded. friday night i went to kathleen's to hang out, but i could only stay til 10 bc i had to wake up to take the sats.

saturday...
i took the sats. they wern't that hard. for all the hype they were given i thought they were going to be way harder than they actually were. i just hope i did good so i don't have to take them again bc they were long and boring. after taking them jackie, dana, brittney and I went to mcdonalds for some "brain food". we also went plant shopping for our moms. after i dropped dana off i went to my cousin's house for a first communion/birthday party. but i didn't stay too long. when i got home i was all excited bc i thought everyone was going to do something last night but noone called me. so when jackie called me i had her come over. and we watched tv and talked. we talked about the first time we really hung out (we went to chili's on the pike and wanted to meet some guys so nicki called kent her friend from berlin, so basically we went to his friends house and it was really random bc one of their dad was hanging out with them and drinking beer with them and then they showed up with pot and we were like we gotta go. it was really randoma nd exciting that i laugh when i think about it and thats why im telling yall) so after jackie left i went to bed. last nite was pretty disapointing. i wanted to go out, but whatever.

today nothing special at all it was pretty boring.

06:39 pm: Ok so i don't know where to start...
I guess I'll just describe my weekend bc i don't know what else to say.

Friday...
Erika and I went to Friendlies and had a good talk but I felt really bad bc I didn't call Jackie and i wanted her to come but I forgot. I Love You Jackie!!!
Then after i dropped Erika off i went to Katy's house. which was fun. I wish we got to watch tearm sanchez though that show is funny. Oh yea when i got there everyone went to pick up hetrick and james so i was there alone with her parents and their friends which was really awkward but luckily they arrived right after. I felt bad that i went after dropping erika off but there wasn't much else for us to do. so sorry erika.

Saturday...
I went to the mall with erika and got my purse for prom. So now I have everything I need. Oh yea I just have to make an appointment to get my nails done. I also bought 2 tank tops. which one i needed. oh yea i got a bra too. well erika and i decided that we are both poor bc everytime we hang out we either split everything or use couponds, but hey we save money.
when i got home i finished all of my homework so i wouldn't have to worry about it today and then kathleen called me. i felt bad bc she was upset that noone called her to hang out on friday night. but she ended up calling me back and we went to hetricks. she wanted to watch a scary movie so we ended up watching halloween reserection. which was pretty freaky. i also got to hear some guy talk which was pretty interesting.

Sunday...
I didn't really do much today.
I just went to hang out with my cousin. when i got home i tried to hook up an old printer and basically almost burned the house down. first it sparked alittel and then i tried another cord and it started to smoke, so my room smells now, but at least the house is still standing.

Great weekend (haha) I found out that tim is now going out with michelle and i feel bad that he is going to prom with me and not her but oh well, im just glad im going to prom.

07:21 pm: its sad vacation is hours away from being over and there is so much more i wanted to do. i had a good vacation but i wish i was home more. we went to dc and that was fun. it was nice to get away. then my mom dragged me to providence ri and mass. and we went college searching first salve regina and i like it and then we did uconn and i liked it so much better compaired to salve. then i hung out with the guys on thursday at hetricks and then at kathleen's on friday nite. but last nite i sat home bc no one called me oh well i got to watch larry the cable guy's git r done show whcih was funny. today nothing exciting at all. and im really dreading waking up at 615 tomorrow
ahhhhhh

08:20 pm: one more thing my voice is still gone but it came and went away throughout the day im not sure if that is good or bad

08:13 pm: home
basically i just want to go home tomorrow it'll be a week since i have been home for longer than like 12 hours and i miss it and i miss my bed. plus i miss my friends even though they haven't called to do anything exciting with me yet but myabe they know i am gone or they are not doing anything exciting. but at least i have plans for thursday nite and friday nite.

well today was my first college tour at salve regina
+small school(only like 3000 students), small class sizes teacher:student ratio 1:13)
+nice campus (on like 78 acres) right by the ocean
+seemed like i could fit in bc its small espeacially coming from Portland
-the music department very small and it didn't look nice
-only 5, yes i said 5 music ed majors total at this time
-let me say it again the music department doesn't seem like there are many opportunities

oh well it was pretty nice i did like the school except for the music dept. but i am still going to consider it bc they have a great education program and i guess the music dept could work and the girl we talked to there like it.

not much else to say im pretty bored right now and wish i was home so i could hang out with my friends!

I MISS YOU ALL!!

<3 JESS

07:32 pm: the trip
ok i want to update on the trip but i don't want to write out every little detail so im going to do a +/- list to sum it up

+got to see DC which i have never seen before
+laughed a lot with my friends (espeacially on the bus)
-the American Indian Museum
-being called obvious by peope
-loosing my voice (by the way it still isn't back its gone completly im down to a whisper on everything)
+learning good gossip
+becoming better friends with certain people, Hetrick and Katy
-petty fights and complaining (seriously a fight over height)
-the food wan't that great
+the baseball game... well not the game ;)
+only spending about $100
-finding out that i didn't need to waste my money on gifts for my family
-being away from home after a trip away from home missing my friends
-not being able to swear as freely bc of my mom

So all and all the trip was good i had a great time and was disapointed last night when i got home bc i didn't want to be home. and of course we had to leave early afternoon to go to my aunts house 2 hours away just so i can visit salve regina college and i don't even want to look there right now but i do need an out of state school option. oh and yeah my voice is gone completly and it sucks bc I WANT TO TALK SO BAD BUT I CANT i'm forced to whisper everything. nothing really else to say except that im going to be pissed if i miss anything exciting tonight and tomorrow night bc of this stupid vacation. but the brightside is i can go to hetrick's on thurs nite and katy's on friday nite so im not missing those.

11:22 am: its been awhile
ok it seems like it has been forever, but i don't have much to say. the past two weekends have been good for me i've been hanging out with the guys and having fun with them, but on the down side with that ive also been drifting from my close friends, like they haven't been calling me to do stuff with them any more and i don't know why? what did i do? do they hate me?
even geoff asked me last night at timmy's, "I don't want to sound rude but is there a reason your hanging out with us now more than your other frineds?"
I didn't know what to say. i was like well they don't call me and it got me thinking.

I'm a horrible friend!!!!!!!!!!!!!

really i probably should have called and invited jackie and erika last night but i didn't. making me a horrible friend. and thinking about it i might have had a better time if they were there bc i didn't do much except laugh at tim and james who were wasted and falling all over the place.

i dunno i just think that my friends don't like me any more for sum reason we are falling apart and it sucks.

Am I a bad person/friend?!?!?!?!!?

06:05 pm: a lot to say
basically a lot has happened in my life right now and i want to say it all but i know im going to forget sum so let me start with the most important...

I'M GOING TO PROM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HE SAID YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so now that this is clear.

well my weekend was the best/worst weekend ever...

friday i went shopping and got my dress and shoes and the dress i got is a pretty blue color with a halter top, and it ties in the back and has flowers and scquens on the top its really pretty if i do say so myself. it was cheap too only $91. i also got my shoes and some t'shirts (im currently boycotting long sleeve shirts in hope that spring will come sooner). then on friday night i slept over erika's house with jackie and we drove to friendlies and got a dinosaur cake which was good.

saturday i went to my cousins house to hang out bc we haven't in ages and then i went to Ashley's house to work on the cold case. now to save my time im going to copy rose's entry about saturday night ands just add alittle more to it bc i'm lazy
"Basically it was a Portland-hick filled night out on the Berlin Turnpike. Jess picked me up around 8:15, and then we collected Jacob and Jackie, and then we waited in the Brooks parking lot to meet up with everyone. During our waiting period in the parking lot, Jackie and I danced, tried to put lip gloss on Jacob, and we all found out that both Shaun and 'Hank' were pulled over in the same spot by the same cop. Around 9, we were finally prepared to leave and in a caravan of about 4 cars was the four previously mentioned, Shaun, Tito, Katy and her lover boy, Wnuk, Hank, James, Tim. I sang the creepy beginning part of Jesus Christ Superstar. We went to Berlin Bowl where we decided we would go to Hooters instead. What sentence does not belong?
At Hooters, I ate a Gourmet Hot Dog. Geoff, Hetrick and 'T-Money' met up with us there. In the parking lot, Jess was perpindicular behind Shaun's truck, and Shaun decided it would be really smart to back up without looking and bump into Jess's car. It was swift, and now Jess has a dent in her car. Then we ventured to Friendly's, where many of the guys decided to take off their shirts in the parking lot, and really, I don't know why.
It was an interesting evening...a few moonings, a collision, skanks, topless people, and a boy named Blue. I really don't know why I wrote all this. Well, that was my evening." so basically u get the picture i had fun up until i got hit but im over that.

sunday i was flipping out bc i realized we forgot a portion of the cold case which is worth 35 points of the grade so erika was my life savor and said she would help me and then easter which made me laugh bc my aunts and uncles were "throwing rocks in a glass house" (long story)

today wasn't a bad day except erika kept calling me this new weird nick name and how i slept in something but whatever i knida got her back by calling her a nickname she hates. oh lunch was different too.

whatever basically im in a good mood right now and really excited about prom!!!!!!!!

07:18 pm: the worst day of my life
well i guess lets start with last night and i had a horrible time falling asleep bc i was thinking of prom and who i'd ask to it and i was nervious for sum reason causing me to take a while before i could go to bed.

well when i woke up everything was normal and i got in my car to go to school and i knew i had a low amount of gas but i figured i'd make it to school and down to cumbies after to fill my tank. well i was horribly wrong. i ran out of gas in the SCHOOL DRIVEWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the most embarrassing thing that could have happened happened. well i didn't know what to do and erika and her mom were right behind me so they were going to turn around and come back and i was crying hysterically and people were stareing as they drove around me and it was just bad. and then cone pulled up and told me what to do and he was like stop crying you should be laughing and he had me get out of my car which made it worse bc then peopel could see me as they were driving up to school. so erika comes back and he sends her away amd i was like wait i want her to stay with me but whatever. then my mom comes, turns around and we go home to get some gas, come back and fill my car up. but on my way back mrs. barber called me and was like where are u i got u gas and i felt really bad bc i was really upset when erika told me that i didn't understand what she said so we filled it with my gas. and then my mom sent me to the gas station to fill it like i was planning to do in the afternoon. and then i went to school and i had to explain everything and i could feel tears in my eyes. and jacob thought i got into an accident and hit cone and people just probably thought i was an idiot. which i was.

it was a rough day i hope tomorrow is better bc it can't get any worse

06:58 pm: Ok so my other entries didn't get in
Well this weekend was uneventful

friday night i went to a concert with my aunt which was fun...Toby Keith!!! and it was a good show his opening act made me laugh he sang a song called "KISS MY ASS" and shot a Saddam dummy. it was a good show and i had a good time except i wish i knew more of toby's lyrics so i could have sung along but i can learn them by aug. so now im pumped forBrad Paisley in May!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

sat... a 9 hour play rehearsal which was boring and it took us the whole time to run through the play ONCE, but oh well. kayla and dana and i had a good heart to heart and we are going to hang out more which im excited about. when i got home i was bored and didn't feel like sitting around anymore so erika nad i went to friendlies and had good talks. sat was a good day for heart to hearts.

sun i sat home and did homework, practiced my flute and watched 2 movies, "How to Lose a Guy in 10 days" and "mean s" (the part with the "if you have u will die! now everyone take some rubber!").

I was thinking last night b4 bed about prom and i know who i want to go with but i could never ask him bc of fear of rejection and he would never ask me so unless someone else asks me im probably won't be going to prom :(

oh well and im mad i spent all this time writing an enrty about my ideal guy and it didn't save so maybe i'll do it some other time

02:09 pm: continued from last entry
ok so i left off on sat...
well my mom and i went to the mall and on our way there we got on the conversation on the person who im not sure if i like or not and basically she doesn't trust him and she had a lot of reasons why she didn't approve of him. so i was thinking well then but it would also be pretty funny if i did like him and go out with someone whom my parents don't approve of but whatever im not even sure of this. then after the mall i got my new muffler in and its louder...not as loud as i wanted it to be but hey its pretty much what i wanted. its cool my dad said its a cherry bomb. then we went out to dinner for my dad's bday and the wait for our food was like an hour and my dad was ready to walk out and just pay for our drinks but the food came just in time. after the very long dinner we went to my grandparent's house for cake to see my uncle from wisconsin.

Sunday...
well on sunday i went to my cousin's house to help paint some more and let me tell you i am sick of painting. i didn't do anything else on sunday. except at 9:30 at night i was invited to go watch a movie at nick's house when they were all there they called me last minute and i couldn't go because it was too late. i ended up crying(pretty pathetic)i think the reason i cried was bc i was called at the last minute when everyone else was there. im pathetic (ive come to that conclusion many times.

Monday...the big snow storm that barely did anything. my mom and i and my aun went and worked out at curves and i think we are going to join. then my mom and i saw the movie hitch it wasn't as good as i thought it was going to be but oh well. then i was suppose to go to ruby tuesdays but bc of the damn weather i was stuck at home and both my parents came to talk to me about it and apoligized and said that my life was more important than some dinner(basically they didn't want me to die in an accidnt)

Tuesday...
my mom and i went to target and then i went to work. after work i went to the basketball game and portland got killed, and after that bc everyone was going home i went home for another night at home. GREAT VACATION

Wednesday...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!!!!!!
it was an interesting birthday i got way more than i asked for. my mom even got me and my aunt tickets to see toby keith which im excited about!!!! i got a lot of cds too. it was a good birthday even though it didn't seem like it.

Thursday/ Today....
not doing to much i worked and bc i was bored i ran earons and ended up here writing in my journal. was going to have people over tonight but mother nature is not on my side at all. she is ruining my vacation. oh well

pray i get the tickets tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!